[ Samatoki isn't necessarily soothed by the action, but it does make him realise that he's sharing a little too much. He's probably making her uncomfortable with such a story. ]
A protector's, huh...
[ He's never considered it that way. Growing up, joining the yakuza and doing what he did to get where he is now, they were done with consent. He knew what he was getting into. Sure, it was to give his sister a better life... but he wouldn't call himself a protector.
Especially after what happened to Nemu. ]
I dunno, Kitsuno. [ He chortles, brows furrowed, but he's forcing himself to smile. ] Anyway, you sure this is what you should be listenin' to on Valentine's Day? C'mon, we should get goin'.
[ That's enough chatter about his stupid life for now. He is on his feet before Kitsuno can even respond. ]
[ She doesn't want him closing up on her, especially if this is something he's held in for so long. Regardless of her naïveté, she's still a princess back home. It's why it's so important for her to listen and learn.
Her hand gives his a squeeze as she stands up with him, her head lowered for a bit. ]
I don't know much about humans beyond what little I've seen at home and what I've encountered here. But when it's coming from you, I— I want to know.
[ She feels a little sheepish admitting that; after all, he has friends who have better understanding, and are better able to help him. But the thought of not being useful grates on her. Especially to someone she calls her friend. And especially to someone she feels the way she does for.
She inhales and exhales before stepping up next to him. ]
Because you're important to me. If all I can do is listen, I'll listen. But if I can give you something at all that helps... I want to. So please... tell me whatever you need to, even if it feels unimportant. I'll listen. And I'll try and help.
[ She smiles weakly. ]
Even a protector needs somewhere to place his burdens, right?
[ Her words are soft, though she ends up chuckling a bit. ]
This is a bit serious, isn't it? Forgive me. I was kept in isolation for so long that it seems I keep forgetting how to "cut loose" as they say here. But... we can't ignore the bad, sometimes. And it's good to unburden our minds of it.
[ She smiles as she looks up, hopeful! ]
How about this? I'll tell you of my burdens if I have any if you keep telling me yours! And we'll work through them together! For our sakes, and for those we want to help!
[ Samatoki stays silent for a while, standing up with Kitsuno by his side. He's listening, just not really sure what to say or how to respond to these things Kitsuno says. It's not that he's closing off on her, or that he's ungrateful for the companionship she brings, but. . . ultimately, it's him who has to do something about his problems, not anyone else.
He's learned to rely on people— he does, of course. That's why he's not against being in teams. That's why it hurt so much when Sasara betrayed him, and then Ichiro. The trust he places in people is almost sacred now, because he still knows how to do it despite all the heartbreaks he's experienced in the past.
These people now, whether it's Mad Trigger Crew, Kitsuno, or the other people whom he's befriended here. They're all important. He trusts them. . . And Kitsuno saying she wants to help. . . maybe he should let these people do that, huh? What Kitsuno offers as an exchange gets him to laugh a little, and he can't help but let go of Kitsuno's hand only so he can pull her in for a hug. ]
[ Ah. She lets out a small surprised sound when she's pulled into a hug, her arms going against his chest as she savours the feeling of being held by Samatoki. She knows- she ought to be more reserved... after all, he is a human, and eventually they'll leave this place. She may never even see him or recall him once she does.
But it's okay to be selfish once in a while, isn't it? Or maybe...
She pauses, pushing her forehead against his chest for a bit, still able to make out his heartbeat this way. Her own fragrance pulses lightly, not letting that thought continue. ]
Then- I suppose I should hug you more often, if it does.
[ She'd do that happily for him. The thought of why makes her feel a tight clench in her chest, but... she doesn't want to let go of it, even if she's sure it won't be returned the same way. But that's why-
That's why she needs to protect him, too. ]
Samatoki, I...
[ She begins, before quickly convincing herself otherwise. Quickly punctuating it with a laugh, she draws her head back to look at him with a bright smile. ]
Let's go get that parfait, and see you win the rap rankings! I'll give you a reward for winning when you do!
[ When he does. She believes in him. Moving to take his hand and thread her fingers with him, she tugs him to get him going! ]
Come on, let's go!
[ If this is the way things will be, then that's how they'll be. Maybe one day she'll be honest with him, but...
Until that time, she's happy things are like this too. ]
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A protector's, huh...
[ He's never considered it that way. Growing up, joining the yakuza and doing what he did to get where he is now, they were done with consent. He knew what he was getting into. Sure, it was to give his sister a better life... but he wouldn't call himself a protector.
Especially after what happened to Nemu. ]
I dunno, Kitsuno. [ He chortles, brows furrowed, but he's forcing himself to smile. ] Anyway, you sure this is what you should be listenin' to on Valentine's Day? C'mon, we should get goin'.
[ That's enough chatter about his stupid life for now. He is on his feet before Kitsuno can even respond. ]
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[ She doesn't want him closing up on her, especially if this is something he's held in for so long. Regardless of her naïveté, she's still a princess back home. It's why it's so important for her to listen and learn.
Her hand gives his a squeeze as she stands up with him, her head lowered for a bit. ]
I don't know much about humans beyond what little I've seen at home and what I've encountered here. But when it's coming from you, I— I want to know.
[ She feels a little sheepish admitting that; after all, he has friends who have better understanding, and are better able to help him. But the thought of not being useful grates on her. Especially to someone she calls her friend. And especially to someone she feels the way she does for.
She inhales and exhales before stepping up next to him. ]
Because you're important to me. If all I can do is listen, I'll listen. But if I can give you something at all that helps... I want to. So please... tell me whatever you need to, even if it feels unimportant. I'll listen. And I'll try and help.
[ She smiles weakly. ]
Even a protector needs somewhere to place his burdens, right?
[ Her words are soft, though she ends up chuckling a bit. ]
This is a bit serious, isn't it? Forgive me. I was kept in isolation for so long that it seems I keep forgetting how to "cut loose" as they say here. But... we can't ignore the bad, sometimes. And it's good to unburden our minds of it.
[ She smiles as she looks up, hopeful! ]
How about this? I'll tell you of my burdens if I have any if you keep telling me yours! And we'll work through them together! For our sakes, and for those we want to help!
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He's learned to rely on people— he does, of course. That's why he's not against being in teams. That's why it hurt so much when Sasara betrayed him, and then Ichiro. The trust he places in people is almost sacred now, because he still knows how to do it despite all the heartbreaks he's experienced in the past.
These people now, whether it's Mad Trigger Crew, Kitsuno, or the other people whom he's befriended here. They're all important. He trusts them. . . And Kitsuno saying she wants to help. . . maybe he should let these people do that, huh? What Kitsuno offers as an exchange gets him to laugh a little, and he can't help but let go of Kitsuno's hand only so he can pull her in for a hug. ]
... This is enough for me. Thanks, Kitsuno.
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But it's okay to be selfish once in a while, isn't it? Or maybe...
She pauses, pushing her forehead against his chest for a bit, still able to make out his heartbeat this way. Her own fragrance pulses lightly, not letting that thought continue. ]
Then- I suppose I should hug you more often, if it does.
[ She'd do that happily for him. The thought of why makes her feel a tight clench in her chest, but... she doesn't want to let go of it, even if she's sure it won't be returned the same way. But that's why-
That's why she needs to protect him, too. ]
Samatoki, I...
[ She begins, before quickly convincing herself otherwise. Quickly punctuating it with a laugh, she draws her head back to look at him with a bright smile. ]
Let's go get that parfait, and see you win the rap rankings! I'll give you a reward for winning when you do!
[ When he does. She believes in him. Moving to take his hand and thread her fingers with him, she tugs him to get him going! ]
Come on, let's go!
[ If this is the way things will be, then that's how they'll be. Maybe one day she'll be honest with him, but...
Until that time, she's happy things are like this too. ]